Heartbroken

Well we've decided to send our son Chris back to Oregon to go to school. Well I had the final decision after discussing it in debth with Jer. It all started when I took Chris to the local high school to register. We got the paperwork and sat down to start filling it out. Chris had a few questions so we were fortunate enough to talk to a school administrator, or so we thought. Chris had quite a few questions about the school and how things worked and what kind of programs they had to offer him for his needs. So Chris started asking the administrator questions but he wouldn't answer Chris, he answered the questions to me as if Chris wasn't even there. This really bothered me not only because Chris was finally taking responsibility in asking these questions, but also for the fact that the when the administrator answered the questions, he talked to my chest not me. Even when I had questions for the administrator, he still only talked to my chest... This was a bit disturbing to me. Since when can boobs talk??? Is this a new add on feature or something? So after spending 45 minutes with this person and watching him talk to my boobs, we found out that they don't offer the programs for Chris that he needs or that we feel comfortable with. They say don't judge a book by its cover, but at the same time first impressions usually account for everything. And as we all know, you never get a second chance to make a first impression. Jer and I both agree it's come down to sink or swim time for Chris. He will now have to take responsibility for his actions and maybe, hopefully, will end up being more independent. Chris in on quarter by quarter probation period with us, which means that he has to keep his grades at no lower than a "C" or he's on the first plane back and he'll have to figure out how to cope without the programs he needs. Jaimee is taking it extremely hard. He's really going to miss his brother, as will Jer and I. This has been the hardest decision I've had to make since the decision to move here to Utah, and it feels like my heart has been pulled out of my chest and squished, I can't breathe when I think about it, and I've cried alot the last 2 days. The family that he is staying with is really great and they love him a lot. He will be staying with his best friend Jordan and Jordan's mom Candy. Chris and Jordan have been best friends since preschool, and Candy loves him like he's her own. Having him live with them is a good decision because he won't get away with much. His life will consist of school, homework, Jordan's football games, and an occasional disc golf game with his totally awesome teacher. He will also be rejoining the bicycle team they have in his step-up program. I'm going to miss him so much, but for right now it's the best for his educational needs and that has to come first before the fact I'm sad. I want him to do the best he can and he's determined to prove Jer wrong about a few things. No matter what the motivation is he's determined to make it work. I have high hopes for my son and I know someday he will make an amazing man. He's already changed so much and has done a lot of growing up which was partly due to the fact he stayed behind to finish last school year while we moved out here.